Life's good until some reminder in my phone pop up. It was her birthday reminder. I had the thought of it removed the past few days. The phone just had to ruin everything -___- Im glad I had the emotions and thoughts in control. Thank God for that.

It brought back the plans and surprises I had prepared for her. I was hoping it was successful one though. Haha. Lame. This and that. Here and there. Every little detail was still in my head. Didnt know if I should wish her or not.

Seems takei quite often on saturday nights with ah win. Lols. Routine win eh? We should seriously consider stop walking the same lane together. We make people leave game too soon and often. =/

Happy Birthday to you.

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

Grief is to mourn and cry over something which could be a person, event, or any possible things that lead to major damage to the emotion. Usually, loss of a loved one. I've attended funerals and cremation events a few times. However, the recent one seems to have "something" to it. (cant think of a proper would to describe what is it)

A parent's grief is indeed scary. The amount of tears, cries, screams do terrify me. Especially the recent one. Heartbroken mum cries her heart out. A heartbroken dad on the other hand, trying to hold the emotions at the brim but the expression of the face still gives it away. A sibling, definitely faced the same pain and emotion especially if they were close ones. Cries and screams of the parents is like a howling which can send shiver down your spines.

For 2 days, I watched the grief of parents for their loss loved one. Anyone, anywhere would have shared some of the pain that is unless your someone who doesnt give a shit. The grief was loud and strong. Everyone at the crematorium are bound to feel it. Man, they even have to hit the button themselves. That's like double damage with critical hit.

First time to see-ing some people shed tears eventho I've walked a few years journey with them. Even I gave away to emotions in the end. Probably because he was my friend, someone we knew, cared, and shared great time with.

Even he too was greatly affected. I know he was close to Jason. Now that's something you dont see everyday :3

He's like one of the oldest guys in our youth and also a very interesting guy. I've always like the way he speaks. Slow and yet funny. He might be passive looking at times but as actual fact, he listens and observes. Not many people would talk to him except for a few. Often, he answers you with one or two words. An intelligent guy I would say.

I remember how surprised I was when I heard that he doesnt eat meat! For the reason of cruelty. Hmmmm. But finally, he did took mc chicken and he loves it! I wish I was at the retreat to see how he had this breakthrough and whack those meat like the retreat fellows told me. Frequently, he would call me on Saturday nights to ask me to fetch him the next morning to church and which I sometimes forget.

I regretted not spending enough time and effort to talk to him. Like Uncle Don said, will those effort and time did more or impacted him? Im sure we did and he had a great time with us. Most of all, we're glad to have you here with us and had got to known you. You will always mark us in our lives Jason. Rest in Peace in the arms of God.

Plenty of cunning moves and tricks by both of them. At the end, it's always Andy Lau who's more cunning tho. He did all those to show how much he loved her. Leaving her hopes and the thing she desired most even after he died. He didnt need to say those 3 words to show how much he loved her. Actions do speak louder than words. Nice.

Jesus left us with his teachings, he's words and holy spirit. He loved us way more then anyone does. Dont you think? :)

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Ask me again, I cant utter those 3 words anymore. Yet, you come to my mind so very often. Thoughts of you always bothers me. Yes and I miss buying you, your favourite cakes, things that makes you happy, how you liked to be pampered and how often I spoil you then. I cant seem to forget you.

He said "She's still affecting you" . Truely enough. Like I said, Im always impressed with the way you handle things. Cunning and yet gg-fying.

I was so attracted to Uruha's hair back then. Loving it still. Im starting to think he uses extensions =/ Aoi's is still pretty short compared to now. How come my hair seems to have it's growth stunted. It doesnt seem to go longer than it should by now. I might wanna change my hair parting soon. I think it's better that way. that means i need to grow everything again??? =/ Doubt it will make any difference to ppl tho.

Aoi didnt tie up his hair like in this video. I like that too.



Kinda disappointed with the current hair Im having now tho. Didnt turn out what i wanted it to be. Yet there are people who likes it and are jealous of it -___- What gives? To heck with it. How come they are not emo with that kind of hair while mine's being one......(=oo=)+

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

Lifehouse - Broken

The broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can start tomorrow
From stealing all my time

And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
I'm barley breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating

In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning

So I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead

And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating

In the pain
(In the pain)
Is there healing?
In your name
(In your name)
I find meaning

So I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm barely holding on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be okay

Broken lights on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
I haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating

In the pain
(In the pain)
There is healing
In your name
(In your name)
I find meaning

So I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm barely holding on to you

I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm holding on
(I'm still holding)
I'm barely holding on to you


Feel and meaningful song. I hope there is a day where our youth can praise and worship using lifehouse's songs. Many of thier songs contents are to God. Often, the song is picture in a way the society wants it to get reviews, promotion or whatever.

Quiet time cant be complete without worship songs can they? =]

Blogs are like a personal online diary. A diary, something you write about your daily life, runts, ramblings, events, things in your life. In any case, you write WHAT YOU WANT and it's your blog/diary. You express your own feelings and thoughts to yourself. In what manner and rights do you have to QUESTION it. Blogs can be publicized unlike diary that is if you choose too. Making ad's or letting everyone know aabout it.

But the weird thing is, some people reads what you write about, your thoughts and so on and they bloody question about it even after a DISCLAIMER there. In certain cases, they terasa! Hilarious much? Lets say you write a general statement about something or your talking about your friend/friends/people you know WITHOUT POINTING ANY FINGERS or MENTIONING any name nor is it to do with any particular someone. Seriously, they feel it, and they get pissed. Today's trend, they get EMO.

Why in the first place did you even get pissed or terasa? Is it cause it's true? It hits you right at that spot? That you have shit on your body?(chinese saying) Some degree of truth bout it? Names nor fingers were pointed. And they go oh-the-world-is-against-me or going around saying something about the person who blogs.

Noob. Nuff said.

Moreover, being noob just aint enough for some people. Knowing you are noob enough, you still go on doing your noobish acts. Makes you even noober. Like in a game of Dota. Knowing all heroes are missing you still happy-go-lucky farming after the river area. Typical noob. And then you die and you BLAME us, when we already warned you. Yes and some people just dont learn from that. They continue doing so. ZERO learning skills.

It's sad that you gotta be cunning in life sometimes.

Anyhow, I apologize if any of you who read my previous post and "terasa". Not pointing to anyone particular.